I read this great book some time ago. It really inspired me the first time and I felt a complete change. But as most things they passed it’s that first excitement of feeling the adventure, the love of God, and how he works miracles in our lives. The question is Was I living “At his feet”? Was my life in every instant portraying as a Daughter of God? No it was not. Recently a co-worker had some harsh words for me, and my usual, normal self would have jumped over the table and probably hit her very hard. But I did not, I just accepted her harsh, rude and sarcastic hurtful words. And soon realized that they had made me feel pretty bad about myself and who I am. I said to myself, “Oh my goodness is this the person that I am portraying, is this how people are really seeing me? Am I not showing or demonstrating that I am a daughter of God??? Was this God telling me through this terrible person, you need to change?

As I sat in my car I cried, and realized that I needed to change, that the person that I am on the inside is not the person that always shines on the outside. I am a great wonderful person, but the problem is that I needed more of that Love that Jesus gives. I needed to show that a real christian is not of words, but actions and lifestyle who we are and how others see us, not when we talk about it but when they look at us, and we don’t know they are.

Through it all I have learned that Jesus has a purpose for me and he wants good things for me, but I have to work towards them. I have to not only preach it, but take it inside my heart and soul. And let the holy Spirit work on me. It’s funny but someone who has been a Seventh Day Adventist all of her life, most times I do not feel privileged. For those of us who have been in the Faith since we can remember, many times we take it for granted that we are privileged and don’t see it that way. I hear a lot of new Adventist say to me, wow I really would of loved to have been raised in this faith. And it’s true..

So I have decided to stop speaking about what, who and were I want to be and go. And simply let the Holy Spirit work on me, let myself be molded by God, and it’s going to hurt, as with anything else nothing comes easy. But the end result is the greatest, to feel like Jesus has made a real difference in my life and to be able to say that I am re-born in his Spirit!!!